Listen loud

My father’s flying in on a one-way ticket from out of state. He’s going to stay with his sister for a few days, but my wife says no, he can’t stay with us. She’s right. It would not be safe for our children. Pop doesn’t like children.

He’s in his usual delusional manic state. I’m in one of my rare uplifted hypomanic states (feeling human again and capable of human interaction).

Three days ago I blew out my car stereo speakers blasting Mastodon. In a real way, that episode assaulted my ears and vandalized my property.

Are episodes people? Can they be arrested, convicted, and imprisoned? I would like to think so. They have their own personalities, but I am not my episodes and my episodes are not me! Someday I will make them relinquish control.

Back to the blown speakers. I had been going through an episode where I simply had to feel the music pumping my heart. The only way to protect my hearing was — I kid you not — to put in earplugs. I had no interest in turning the volume knob counterclockwise. Now I’ve got to buy new speakers.

Have you ever done anything like that? If so, please comment below.

My hypomanic episode has switched to a positive vibration.To my surprise, I can listen loud. As a result, I’m grateful for what this episode’s done for me.

To be grateful for one of my episodes is a rare occurrence.

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