The jitters

Down again and jittery due to medication side effects. Fingers don’t work right, brain failing. Considering hospitalization. Saw psychotherapist today. Seeing psychiatric nurse practitioner on Monday. Insane father comes to town on Tuesday.

Just get me to the airport, put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry, before I go insane
I can’t control my fingers, I can’t control my brain
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Full lyrics here

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Did you forget to take your meds?

Yes. I did. And that’s a lame joke.

_meds

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Motorheads before there was Motörhead

The Ventures were incredibly popular in Japan.

The guy in the audience at the start of part 2 invented headbanging:

The Ventures played fast and loud.

Johnny Ramone played a Ventures model Mosrite.

Motorheads are speed freaks.

Motörhead paid tribute to the Ramones.

Marky Ramone played with The Ventures.

Billy Zoom saw The Ramones and was inspired to found X.

The Ramonetures and Billy Zoom put out a Ventures-laced album of X covers.

The Ramonetures’ first album consisted of Ventures-inspired Ramones covers.

But to return to the subject of Japan, where it all began …

End of story.

Postscript: I would never encourage anybody with a mood disorder to use drugs of abuse. They’re bad news. But nobody said anything about audio speed. Enjoy!

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Pure mania

This is one of my favorite albums. “Pure Mania” also runs in my family.

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Listen loud

My father’s flying in on a one-way ticket from out of state. He’s going to stay with his sister for a few days, but my wife says no, he can’t stay with us. She’s right. It would not be safe for our children. Pop doesn’t like children.

He’s in his usual delusional manic state. I’m in one of my rare uplifted hypomanic states (feeling human again and capable of human interaction).

Three days ago I blew out my car stereo speakers blasting Mastodon. In a real way, that episode assaulted my ears and vandalized my property.

Are episodes people? Can they be arrested, convicted, and imprisoned? I would like to think so. They have their own personalities, but I am not my episodes and my episodes are not me! Someday I will make them relinquish control.

Back to the blown speakers. I had been going through an episode where I simply had to feel the music pumping my heart. The only way to protect my hearing was — I kid you not — to put in earplugs. I had no interest in turning the volume knob counterclockwise. Now I’ve got to buy new speakers.

Have you ever done anything like that? If so, please comment below.

My hypomanic episode has switched to a positive vibration.To my surprise, I can listen loud. As a result, I’m grateful for what this episode’s done for me.

To be grateful for one of my episodes is a rare occurrence.

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Everybody’s got a pillbox

Show us yours!

pillbox

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It’s gonna be alright

Need  a lift?

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